Blog sorry, i need to vent everything out.



Loving someone is too hurtful, i am at fault too.

Now no point blaming each others.

But why am i still feeling this.



Bullshit, i got so much to say but i shall keep it to myself.

I just wanna say, i did not spread anything.

You know it deep down.

25th June 09



Its thursday today, did not really sleep well last night.

Not that i am nervous about the event today. I just dunno why.

Woke up at 6am in the morning, did some stretches and shower.

My mom also nag at me for turning the heater till maximum.

I do not know why, it helps me get rid of my puffy eyes faster.

I will feel more awake too, oh, thats just wei hao.

Not many times i will wear jeans to work, i had to.

Grab a hotdog bun from the table and took a cab.



The day started smoothly but this taxi uncle spoilt my morning.

When i board the cab, i told the uncle "Singapore Management University"

The uncle replied me "Orh"

So i guess he know wheres the place and know how to go.

1 min later he asked me which route i wanna take.

I said PIE, CTE.

Thats the only way i know.

I do not know other route.

So, after a while i realised he did not went CTE.

He go by bugis that road, which i think is a detour.

I do not think he is avoiding ERP, i am the one paying right?

Its not about the 1-2 dollars different, i had to waste 10 mins longer.

Which one will you choose?



Anyways, nowaday, taxi uncle is terrible.

Is either they are gay freak, old freak, dumb freak.

Whats the point of asking me the route when you dun go that route.

Some uncle see cute cute boy, at first talk then pretend accidently touch.

Some drive until sleep, what the hell.

We are the one paying, so do your job well.


Heres the case, i got a friend hazel.

She got a sprain because a taxi uncle drive pass red light.

Come lets debate,

• He have a family to support
  
• He is not on purpose
  
• He might lose his job and not be able to drive
  
• No income for family
  
  

Or

• Reckless driving
  
• Who cares? Its his fault right.
  
• This kind of person will not learn his mistake.
  
• Let the police handle.
  
  

Hazel did not report it as she got a shock from that incident already.

Its up to indivivual to decide la, as i think since its over then forget it.

But the problem is, he might kill someone next time.

Another factor if reported, he might be blacklisted and not be able to drive.

Anyways, too much about taxis.



Event went smoothly, i did not do much also.

I just make sure everything is in place and the event run smoothly.

My first project okay, i give myself 95/100 haha.



Went back to the office to settle some stuff,

After which i head back to SMU to clear payments.

Thanks to someone who give me a ride.

Went shopping with kelvin and deon.

I bought a new shoe and a shirt.

I saw benny korkor, kenneth and a few other friends.

Life is sort of into place now.

No matter what, the missing part of the puzzle can never be find.

Its something that i am still searching, i am waiting.

When i thought i have found it, it disappear after sometime.

I seriously dunno what i am typing already.

This kind of feeling is hard to describe.



P/S : I LOVE MY MOM'S COOKING.

I LOVE YOU TOO

24 June 09



This week is weihao's sick sick gorgeous week.

Took me so long to recover from all this illness.

I had flu, fever, sorethroat, headache and backache.

Dun worry, its not swine flu as i am perfectly fine now.

Maybe it is and i just over come it, immune system is good.

Let me recap how was work yesterday, haha.

Kinda having time lapse now as everyday seems so alike now.

Used to have someone to quarrel with, loved, hugged and chat with.

Now when everything is gone the days seems to be all the same.



I woke up at 9 plus yesterday because my mom was knocking the door.

Normally she will just knock but the knock was different yesterday.

It is a two time soft knock, pause then two time soft knock again.

I did not reply her as i was very sick and planned not to go for work.

After a while she came back and knock, the same tone, rhythm and energy.

I got so irritated and i shouted, i am very sick let me rest a while more.

As usual i took my pillow and cover my ear and sleep for 10 mins more.


I told myself i need to leave house by 10am and i did.

Went for a quick shower and while i was wearing my socks i asked my mom.

Me : " Why today you knock the door so different ah?"

Mummy: " Cause i dun want to disturb you too much."

Me : " Then why keep knocking, stop then come back every 3-5 mins."

Mummy: " I know you are sick and when you dun reply, i will be scared leh."<br>

The moment i hear this, i was so touched.

My mother really care for us so much, wonderful mom right.

That was about it for yesterday.


I still love and miss you,

I wont let my emotions control my life though.

Always "n" Dearest You.

Sunday was super tiring, i am so tired but i still have alot of things to do.

Early in the morning, william send me home after benny's chalet.

Actually, i was suppose to stay over but my bed was taken.

Damn those two, although, i dunno who is it.

Anyways my bed at home was so much better. Reached home at 6am.

I went to bed straight as i bathed at the chalet.



Life's tiring yeah? I woke up at 11am and had to prepare to head over to help mama.

Received an 99 roses order. Upon reaching was work + work.

Dethorning was all done by me, lolx. What a underhand job right.

I help in holding it together. The worst part is bending up and down.

I almost fainted, some will know why.

I dunno i should be happy with my life now or not, at the very least i am trying not to think about it.

After rushing the bouquet i had to send it to JURONG POINT.

After which i did some random shopping over there until 9pm or so.

I bought you a watch, hope you will fully utilise it.

I went to seletar reservoir with a friend and thanks for the night. =)



I went back to your house to sleep as i have an order to send very early in the morning.

Stupid weather, it rain and i got drenched.

Anyways, schedule is packing up and i am getting quite busy.

I will not skip work anymore as there is no one that i can do it for anymore.

I know you do not like it too.

Life till today has been hell.

I do not know whether is it cause of the rain i am falling sick.

I had sorethroat on sunday night and then now with flu and headache.



I hope that life for you have been great. =)

Left work yesterday at 3pm to rest.

Wore out and shagged, today was feeling even worst but i will be fine.

I need to learn to take care of myself.

Life will get better and smoother, i guess.

Thats all for today, more pictures will be up.

I am surprised that there is people coming back to read my blog.

I did not even tell anyone about the re-blogging.

The hits for today is 13, haha i am amazed, seriously.



Signing off,

The sick little boy

Weihao

I has been a very tiring day for me today, have just went over to jeremys birthday.

A very cool party, located near liang court, somerset residence apartment.

A stay over is always good for me, i had a very peaceful sleep.

Maybe i am just so used to someone sleeping beside me.

I just drop dead, i wish you will be beside me always but i know that will not happen.



I need some time, i really need it.

June 19,



Its 12.14am in the morning now and i am awake.

Finally fell asleep last night after this 4 days without sleep.

I helped a friend on tuesday, who is actually in the same case as me.

At least i have a choice to choose, he does not even have i think.

I hope he will find his happiness soon, all the best bro.



Wednesday was hell of fun, i was rushing a proposal in office till 6.30pm.

Was damn tired i swear but at least samuel was there to chat with me online.

Hazel and i meet up nearby my office at outram for KTV session.

(Advise: Please do not go there, the system is full of faults)<br>
Actually i was suppose to head off by 9 or 10pm.

But it was sort of cancelled last minute so we stayed till 1plus.

Oh, peiliang was there too, as hazel ask him as i am leaving early.

It is one of the craziest night ever la, we sing all the songs we could.

As usual i sucked at singing.



Today, i was not very busy in office.

Kinda feeling down and thinking alot of things.

I feel that i should occupy my time with lots of things.

Crazy things i mean, like? Seriously i have no idea what, haha.

I went for a hair cut after my work with benny.

Saw bobby at Ang Mo Kio MRT station.

Kinda surprised too, he is in formal wear. =)



Have a nice hair cut, i like it alot, as i look like a nerd now.

Went over to pick up camera from someone.

I am sad when i see your mom, i dunno why.

Everything, all this feeling just came back.

I thought i am ok, i thought i am fine.

I thought i can live better without you but i am sooo sooo wrong.

Time heals, i agree with that.

I am a stubborn kid, i am so sure i am not in self denial.

I love you so much.



I have no idea who the hell is still reading my blog as it kinda dead.

I hope you will never come and read.

This will be my diary, my only soulmate now.

I am so scared that i will just say out everything when i am drunk.

I am really scared. Who cares right? I don't think you do.



Anyways, i am looking of the bright side of things now.

Whatever things we do, people up there will see.

I believe in RETRIBUTION.

I know its a bit harsh. Maybe i should rephrase it

My meaning is "Ren Zai Zhou, Tian Zai Kan"



It shall be till here for today.

I do not know whether my english have deproved or my grammer has weakened.

I hope people reading woont mind.

=)



Signing off, weihao

I am back to my blog again, cause i have nothing better to do.

I am sick since yesterday morning till now still feeling wobbly.

Been lying on the bed alot and thinking quite alot of things.

Sometimes i really wonder. Do you really care about me?

Is clubbing really more important then me?

Dun give me the excuse that you have no time to do that anymore.

Clubs wont disappear, i also think that u had enough already..

I am seriously in a very unstable state now.

Maybe i am use to being alone for now i guess.



All i just wanna say is: "Treasure what you have"

Do not wait till i am gone.

Whats with all the sudden emo-ness. Haha

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